Not Granted
For all
that is in my heart …
there are no words
… big enough …
…… strong enough …
……… deep enough
to hold all you mean to me.
I can only say
… I miss you …
…… I want you …
……… I love you
Miss…
does not bear
how lost I feel
when I cannot
… see you
…… find you
Want…
does not endure
how my body aches
when I cannot
… touch you
…… kiss you
Love…
does not possess
the full meaning
of this … connection
… this … tether …
a pull so … strong …
it threatens to tear … my core … from me
You have become part of me … so fast …
I feel I’ve lost my balance.
There is so much I want with you.
My fear…
that I’m fooling myself
… that I’ve been fooled by you.
My hope…
you feel the same things
… you have the same fears.
But if I believe
even for …one moment …
that what we are
is being taken for
… granted…
that there is no need
… to flirt or flatter
… to play or please
… to try …
that thought
… takes my breath away…
frightens me more … than all else.
Do you need to hear how
… beautiful …
you are to me?
How the thought
… of your eyes
… of your smile…
makes my heart swell?
How the thought
… of your touch
… of your kiss….
makes my body shiver?
That who you are …
calms … and excites me
all at once?
That I want always …
to make you smile?
…to hear you laugh?
……to see the love in your eyes?
If you don’t…
I would end this now
rather that …
than see … this …
die a slow death;
drowned…
in a sea of assumptions
wither…
in a desert of neglect…
for Love
… like a garden
…… should be tended
… because …
Life
… grows wild
…… like weeds
…and … nothing … is granted.
© KJ Miller 2010
Dark Djinn Deviations 